given a diagnosis – coming to terms

It’s hard when you have been poorly for nearly a year with no answers, to then be given the answer, oh, what mixed feelings that brought, relief that at last I knew what it was and that treatment plans could be put in place, then the fear of what is to come.

Of course, we all have a time ticket and when you reach the stub end that’s it, game over, but to know that your time is now limited is scary, On the one hand you wish it would hurry up and be over, on the other the ticking clock is loud and ominous. Is this the time you turn to religion, just incase?

Things are sharper in appearance and you notice every little thing, and each night you hope that you are going to see tomorrow….